God Lives Under The Bed
I envy Kevin. My brother, Kevin,
thinks God lives under his bed.
At least, that's what I heard him say one night.
He was praying out loud in his dark bedroom,
and I stopped to listen,
'Are you there, God?', he said.
'Where are you?
Oh,
I see. Under the bed...'
I giggled softly and tiptoed off to my own room Kevin's
unique perspectives are often a source of amusement. But
that night something else lingered long after the humor.
I realized for the first time the very different world Kevin
lives in.
He was born 30 years ago, mentally disabled as a result
of difficulties during labor. Apart from his size (he's
6-foot-2), there are few ways in which he is an adult.
He reasons and communicates with the capabilities
of a 7-year-old, and he always will. He will probably always
believe that God lives under his bed, that Santa Claus is
the one who fills the space under our tree every Christmas
and that airplanes stay up in the sky because angels carry
them.
I remember wondering if Kevin realizes he
is different. Is he ever dissatisfied with his monotonous
life?
Up before dawn each day, off to work at
a workshop for the disabled, home to walk our cocker spaniel,
return to eat his favorite macaroni-and-cheese for dinner,
and later to bed.
The only variation in the entire scheme
is laundry, when he hovers excitedly over the washing machine
like a mother with her newborn child.
He does not seem dissatisfied. He lopes
out to the bus every morning at 7:05, eager for a day of
simple work.
He wrings his hands excitedly while the water boils on the
stove before dinner, and he stays up late twice a week to
gather our dirty laundry for his next day's laundry chores.
And Saturdays Oh, the bliss of Saturdays!
That's the day my Dad takes Kevin to the airport to have
a soft drink, watch the planes land, and speculate loudly
on the destination of each passenger inside. 'That one's
goin' to Chi-car-go! 'Kevin shouts as he claps his hands.
His anticipation is so great he can hardly sleep on Friday
nights.
And so goes his world of daily rituals
and weekend field trips. He doesn't know what it means to
be discontent..
His life is simple.
He will never know the entanglements of
wealth or power, and he does not care what brand of clothing
he wears or what kind of food he eats.
His needs have always been met. He never worries that one
day they may not be.
His hands are diligent. Kevin is never happier
than when he is working. When he unloads the dishwasher
or vacuums the carpet, his heart is completely in it.
He does not shrink from a job when it is begun and he does
not leave a job until it is finished. When his tasks are
done, Kevin knows how to relax. He is not obsessed with
his work or the work of others. His heart is pure.
He still believes everyone tells the truth,
promises must be kept and when you are wrong, you apologize
instead of argue.
Free from pride and unconcerned with appearances, Kevin
is not afraid to cry when he is hurt, angry or sorry. He
is always transparent, always sincere. And he trusts God.
Not confined by intellectual reasoning,
when he comes to God, he comes as a child.
Kevin seems to know God - to really be friends with Him
in a way that is difficult for an 'educated' person to grasp.
God is his closest companion.
In my moments of doubt and frustrations,
I envy the security Kevin has in his simple faith.
It is then that I am most willing to admit that he has some
divine knowledge that rises above my mortal questions.
It is then I realize that perhaps he is
not the one with the handicap. I am.
My obligations, my fear, my pride,
my circumstances - they all become disabilities when I do
not trust them to God's care.
Who knows if Kevin comprehends things I
can never learn? After all, he has spent his whole life
in that kind of innocence, praying after dark and soaking
up the goodness and love of God.
And one day, when the mysteries of heaven
are opened, and we are all amazed at how close God really
is to our hearts,
I'll realize that God heard the simple prayers of a boy
who believed that
God lived under his bed.
Kevin won't be surprised at all!
Sent in by Opal King
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